Hope you all had a lovely weekend.

My Saturday was relatively decent.

Sunday ahhhhgh 

It got better once I crawled back in bed and pretended I'd never gotten up! LOL

I'm gonna update yah hehe but not much of it is good nor bad~ just is ...what it is arrrgh so if I were you I'd just skip this blog completely!

In fact it would be best for you to read this

(Busy As Fuck, Hanging In, Kids Sick, The Adult Child Drove me Nuts, Doing Tax Forms today which is less fun than sticking toothpicks in my eyes)

There and be done with it!

That's it cliff noted!

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If you love torture and such~ keep reading~ I can surely provide you with immense joy and nourish your seeking soul... for darkness

hehe

Updates for the brave!

Mac's hanging in there

Although I've not had time to burn & only add to its load of very high memory files.

Sounds like Mac and I have something in common! LOL

Wow ~ now the empathy is welling up in me for Mac Dad and guilt.

Burn today I say~ but I've been saying that for ahhh well since spring? Ooops

I had so many folders on my desk top and folders within folders~~

It just said

Hey Lady FU~ I can't take anymore, Poof!

They are there, they are just hiding from me!

I would too!

I can click a random spot anywhere on the desk top (literally anywhere) and bamm whatever it is pops up which I must say is kinda interesting hehe. Not so fun when in a rush eh'. But some pretty wild shit is popping up. lmao

I'm like hey, where did that cock come from? More boobs?~ geeshe

It could be worse I suppose, what if all my files were numbers?

Right??... Glass half full.... blahblahblah right?

Come on My cheerleaders 

We are in my little cheer me up, help me make it through the day situation here. 

Chop Chop

PomPoms Up!

Actually I just thought of something, M is way the hell out in Gainesville today so if his ass doesn't find Jacksonville by deadline~ I'm gonna have to drive around downtown? OH, Hell No. They just changed everything and these people couldn't get it right when it was a one way much less two way and then there is parking ~eeeek "forgetaboutit"!

So back to the Mac Dad

To find safari I'm having to go up and scroll down my menu

& find it via "recent" items.

Ya know your desk top needs some relief when Safari says Cyah!

I'm outta here! 

I met my deadline for Friday 6PM ~with attorney

Yet with all things there is always more.

I should take an iphone pic of my current office as you would be astonished it wasn't created by a real tornado~ I'm not kidding and words cannot do it justice!

It is a fucking disaster, I can barely make it in and out of here but in some odd way I actually know which piles are what>? And two garbage (lawn and leaf size bags)

of paperwork have gone out to the trash! Progress is ahh kinda present. hehe

Don't go playing in my trash boys and girls! BTDT =Been There Done That

I'll think you are a raccoon and put you down!

hehehe

SO the Doc finally got the damn vaccines in  ( H1N1 and Flu Shot  ) so I scheduled ZnV both on Friday for tomorrow morning. Yipppeee! Tuesday , tomorrow we will have some protection. I was so stoked.

Ahhhh JOY AHHHHH Joy Ahhhh

THEN...

DRUM Rolling over blue balls...

Fuck if they didn't get sick over the weekend. First Z coughing and runny nose, low grade fever not real alarming but certainly not the condition that would be acceptable for a vaccine of any kind as I just went through that hellah fun! So I thought ok Z will be a sick visit V will be Vac appointment right. Hrrrmmmmmm, then V's nose starts running yesterday. This morning they are both slurping yogurt hacking, coughing, sneezing. I feel so bad for them. What a rough season.

And its still July Hot here? iyiyiyi

They did not go through this there first year ever exposed to other children after spending five years very safeguarded. That year did not present as badly as this year nor as early. This one is seriously more sick days than healthy. I'm definitely gonna have to evaluate my options if we don't have this season under control soon.

35 children have passed from with confirmed H1N1 

those are numbers they are allowing out anyway

many areas just stopped reporting each confirmed case to keep calm present

 I know it isn't just here it is everywhere and even the teachers are going down. They rarely go down, ever!

Having the vaccine available and them healthy enough to get the protective vaccine has been like catching a star! Good Luck.

I'd stay High too, if I could LOL

OK I couldn't resist that harhar 

humor sometimes is a solo proposition but it made me giggle so nahnahnah

I'm talking to stars and it's bloody 11:10 am? umkay

I'm definitely on the edge of nonsense

So today I will call the Doc and see if tomorrow can be a sick visit, can we get a strong ass antibiotic once we find out if it is viral or bacterial?

The close proximity and a million kids on a field trip was certainly not a great idea last Tuesday. And I feel like damn, I should have used more disinfectant last Wednesday at chici.

 Then can I get them better before the Doc runs out of the vaccine

that has taken a Fn stones age to get here?

Save, Hide, Stash

Ooooooh did I say that? nah I just thought it. You did not read that ~

SO where the f was I?

OH so they are both awake and in yogurt ville with Handy Manny show on in the LR and V has gotten the cough as well.

So I'm in here rambling and about to google the forms as I have to actually prepare the 2008 taxes blue ink but not file as the attorney wants to make sure the shit gets done therefore his delivering or handling it is a safe guard.

I scanned and emailed all I could on Friday but did not actually do the prep paperwork as it isn't needed until today !!!The actual tax forms.

A new deadline whoohoo and someone forgot to leave their W2's ahem

yet I got what I could on the phone few minutes ago. hmm

With the time crunch I'm under I know I'm gonna miss out on a boat load of tax write offs but now its about deadlines not finding every receipt. And the right offs are highest when yah start or restart a biz like relaunching sweets. What can yah do?

They do have a new loop hole which is cool and might happen where this tax return could get put in an account and prorated over time evenly distributed to the various debts. There are only like four. Car, Home, Student Loans, Medical.

Pretty main frame situation 

no credit cards and such

Other wise in the past any tax returns coming would automatically have been gobbled up by say the student loans only. Which in reality his ass should have handled decades ago. Pain in the ass LOL

This will consolidate a bunch and make my life easier paying through an attorney on items once its established it can be an automatic debit from pay and I won't even have to look at it but for a few months I will need to be on top of it weekly and I think the trustee gets like 10% or something but with the value of the home market so bashed we are hoping an adjustment will be made and the second mortgage could be dropped. We shall see. They of course will fuck me with the A.R.M. if they can but we will see eh'. Hoping they put a cap on that as these mortgage companies are having a good time kinda like the credit card companies right now. Get what yah can before the bill passes and the law changes! Quick!

So I'm trying not to smoke, I am drinking coffee and hoping to actually get this nightmare of paperwork deadlines done. 

I wish I had help but in reality I've always done the paperwork, the numbers, the labor and then attempted to have someone just look at the weeks of work I'd invested to have an itemization. The work it took to actually present an accurate spread sheet and bottom line and with a moments glance poof, "OK" they are done.

Thorough reading of such would be completely unreasonable to ask of someone.

Some people aren't "good at things" cuz they don't want to be! 

Some of us get good at things cuz we Fn have to.

No choice.

Or we just get through...

Future Optimistic Visions NOW!

Imagining my office with a floor!

I think I will take a picture. Forget @ being embarrassed ~yah know what

When yah move an office and are in boxes and need things immediately or yesterday~~~ paper is gonna fly!!

Murphy's Law

Oh gosh, that man-child just drove by! He is living with his grandmother close by and I think he has a financed like 1975 Camaro now? hehe. LMAO

It does make noise.

He has been less creepy lately 

at least towards me~ maybe he has new prey>?

Or he heard some "rumors" about me hehe

Like how I love 2 shoot people?!

of course I'm kidding

My office is amusing to look at now. Horror= Amusing~ Twisted world eh'

yea I'll pic it for yah hehe

This could be a cool before and after! With a long in between ~of course.

Ahh the venting continues 

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So I'm knee deep in hell and required help on  Saturday which gets so old cuz its like am I the only damn grown up around here that expects things to be organized and livable and why do I have to feel like an asshole making the list and requesting things to be done? I mean shit, if yah step over something on your way somewhere you should be able to think hey maybe I can pick that up without me asking cuz I'm doing a bazillion other fn things.

Example! LOLLOLOLOL

Like a big ass real pumpkin on the floor in the middle of the hall entry long after the Hallows Eve? Toe Stubbing didn't even help ring the bell?

 Home on the range is sucking balls big time~ I gotta tell yah, it ain't a party but I'm still breathing kinda and gonna make it through.

Grocery Shopping was done last night and I'm grateful for that. I went ahead and put things away before cleaning out the fridge and freezer first which I never do! It was supposed to have been done the day before and well... But if it was perishable it was gonna fit by gosh! cram smash smoosh! hehehe

I'm trying to keep things reasonably fun, educational and on schedule without too much discourse but this is hard to do when its been a year of parting discussions and my part has been mostly silent observation and just mulling the future. I'm not really a quiet person and as you can see I am wordy from this babbling blogee. I'm rather wordy. But I've been silent for a long, long time here.

Not having it completely planned is difficult as once a plan is in place and you see a sign with the proper directional emblem bamm yah head for it but this thing ain't black and white and its not a fast track by any means. And plans are like teeth ~always in motion.

Obviously this legal matter has over shadowed the issues of before although they are intertwined. I must prioritize the list and the home obviously is in peril from mismanagement and irresponsible choices. Home is the first task accomplished and then I will go from there. 

Yesterday, I didn't even try with the needs of the home I simply let it go and ducked out ! I painted shells with the girls and worked on their closet and clothes and got a terrible headache from the clapping seal and cursing and then elation and then screaming at the Plasma by a Jets fan like he was in the damn stands at the game live. It was going through the walls. No escape ? IYIYIYI

Enthusiasm is one thing but much more enthusiasm well

I'm just sayin'

yah know what I mean

arrrgh

The only thing that saved him was that xanie I took

well, that might be plural but yah get it hehe

No one person is ever at fault we all have our part in all situations. I realize it breaks down to everyone having some percentage of the blame.

I'm far from perfect, far far far!

I'm a big ol pain in the ass too I'm sure hehe

I have flat out stated this will not be how I live my life.

I'm done living it this way.

But I am trying to get this "life" organized and in the coming year will have some very big decisions to make. Right now I will put out fires. My hopes for next year is that I can prevent fires. There is much more peace in prevention and longer life expectancy. SO we shall see. I'm very clear of what will and won't be which is good yet right now I'm digging outta a hole and it leaves me with very little energy left.

I appreciate the daily love from all of you on the forum, twitter, Face Book and I must say some days when I've been dealing with the hells of here the only laughter I've had has been through your tweets and such. It has been a wonderful place to spend time with you almost live and here at SweetSamples we of course have members that stop by only for the fantasy and pics and vids which is cool ~hell I do that on other sites too! But I also have career long, life long friends on here and I never take that for granted. You have proved this by standing by me

and I want to thank you.

This summer was so rough on me I almost put sweetsamples on a temporary vacation and have tried to avoid doing so because of your support.

I hope we can maintain and move ahead without continual delays and vacation can be avoided. I'm putting enormous effort into that, please know this.

My Mother called and I tried to actually listen to the voice mail on that iphone cuz I have no idea what I'm doing. You know I don't use it as a phone. So it took like four times trying & I actually got to hear the voicemail.

LOL It was about the storage unit~

Nice ~Just a message about a storage unit.

Still natta since Father's Day? Really is bullshit.

Having someone to photograph and video me would be nice around here but actually self sufficiency I have become better at

and hope to continue to improve at as needed over time. 

I'm a little sad, overwhelmed, and very unsure of tomorrow

I won't lie to you and pretend I'm peachy yet I haven't quit. I'm not giving up yet.

I'm shooting straight without any bubbly bullshit yet I do find with my black humor some of this funny. Hindsight will certainly be a better seat!

And even in the depths of hell~ one can enjoy a joke , share a joke,

Laughter is the fuel that has kept me going, barely but some! lol

Thank you

All My Love, SaRenna Lee